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  Sincerely,

  Your dad.

  Jason was finished reading his letter and leaning against the side of the pickup with the letter crumbled in his hand. Tears streamed down his face as he looked at the wadded up paper. I walked over to him and stood beside him, he shook his head and looked up at me. “You know, if the mother fucker wasn’t already dead I’d be in that house unloading the clip into his head. He was a sick mother fucker Jet.” He said.

  “I can’t believe this shit, what did he write in the letter to you?”

  Jason snorted, un-crumbled the paper and handed it to me.

  Dear Jason,

  I’m sorry, for everything.

  Sincerely,

  Nathan

  I handed Jason the letter that dad had written me, he read it and shook his head. “That mother fucker is NOT being buried next to her, I have no problem throwing him in a god damn dumpster but I don’t think they’ll let us do that.”

  “Hell no he’s not, we’ll let his brother’s figure out where to bury him, just as long as it’s far away from mom. I’ll call them and you see if you can get in touch with Marvin.” I told him as we started back towards the house. Jerod sat on the porch and read the letters that were left for Jason and me. He was in complete shock and agreed that dad wouldn’t be near mom for their final resting place.

  My cell phone was constantly going off with calls and text messages from Chass, I couldn’t talk to her, I didn’t WANT to talk to her. I knew Jerod had already told her what had happened, and I had talked to Mitch briefly after the coroner had removed their bodies. I couldn’t keep ignoring Chass so I finally answered. She sounded sad and defeated that I was so short with her during our conversation. I needed time away from her, we needed time away from each other, all I could think was how she should feel relieved that dad was dead since he had killed her dad. Something just hadn’t felt right since I had gotten back from Boone, something was wrong and I didn’t know what I couldn’t put my finger on the problem between Chass and me. So I decided to do the chicken shit thing and ignore her, I couldn’t fight with her right now. When she mentioned that she wanted to come spend time with me after she got back from a football game in Texas I knew that our problem was me…I don’t trust her any more than she trusts me. I loved her but she deserves to be with somebody that can trust her and make her happy in life instead of constantly upsetting her.

  I had called the college to let them know what had happened, and told them I wasn’t going to be coming back for at least a month. They were very understanding and the professors said that if I could do some of the assignments online I would be able to maintain a good grade average. My uncles agreed that dad would be cremated and buried out at the family farm away from mom. We had a nice service for her, watching Marvin’s heart break was horrible, he truly loved her and his time was cut short because of Nathan. The anger that I harbored inside of me because of this was getting to be more than I could control. A couple of days after mom’s funeral Jerod’s dad gave him a ride back to the campus, I wasn’t ready to go back yet. First thing Jason and I did was withdraw all the money from the bank account that dad had told me about in the letter, we paid for his funeral expense and paid for moms.

  Marvin told us there was no way he could continue living in the house, “I’d love to burn it down but I don’t think they would like that too much.” He told Jason and I one evening as we sat the motel room drinking a beer. Marvin would stare off into a blank stare, then his eyes would flood with tears, white knuckles from his grip being so tight on the beer in his hand. “That son of a bitch had to have known I was going to be out of town, he had to have known…I would have shot him in the god damn head had he tried to talk to her. It took me a long time to get her to trust me and love me because of that asshole. (He shook his head) I just can’t believe this, my first wife cheats on me with my best friend, my second wife that I love with all my heart is murdered by her psychotic ex-husband.” He said and started sobbing. After a few minutes he wiped at his eyes, “I’m selling the house, I can’t live there, I just can’t. You guys understand don’t you?” He asked. Jason and I both nodded.

  One week later we had the house cleaned out, repainted all the walls and put it on the market. Marvin moved into his old apartment and took a month off of work to get all of mom’s life insurance paper work taken care of, and he said he just needed time to be alone. Jason went back to Ohio and back to work about a month after we buried mom.

  I went to the bank one day to see how much money dad had deposited for Chase, the clerk punched in his account number then handed me a slip of paper with the about written on it, $7286.22. “Sir it’s also noted here that he has a safety deposit box. Only Jet and Jason Crow can access it.” The clerk told me then asked if I wanted to go look through it. I handed her my ID and told her yes. When she took me into the vault where they kept the safety deposit box’s I wasn’t expecting to find what I did. The clerk pulled the shoe box sized box out of the safe, handed me the key and left. I opened the box, there was a key to his house with a note “Please go to my house and get rid of what you don’t want.” I laid the note with the key to the side and lifted up a divider. There were numerous savings bonds for Jason and I that totaled up to one hundred thousand dollars for each of us. Also their marriage license and divorce papers laid folded at the bottom along with the wedding ring mom had left him with when she left with Jason and I that night years ago. After I left the bank with the money from the savings account for Chase and the savings bonds for Jason and I, I drove the one hour drive to his house.

  The house was a small house set back behind some overgrown bushes. The little grey house looked run down and worn from years of neglect. I used the key to let myself in the front door, stale cigarette smoke lingered in the air, the TV was on but only static filled the screen, and a small light was on above the kitchen sink. I walked down the hallway, the first door I opened was his bedroom, a small single bed with only a pillow and a quilt laid on it. There was a three drawer dresser, I yanked all the drawers out and dumped them on the bedroom floor. He had only a few different changes of clothes and nothing hidden in the drawers. I looked under his bed, between the mattress and box springs, then in his closet. I opened the door and there staring back at me were all of the trophies he had won when he raced. I pulled all of them out and carried them into the kitchen, then went back down the hall and opened the other doors, one was a small linen closet, one was a small bathroom, and the other was to a small bedroom that still had a few boxes of dads neatly stacked against the wall. I carried the boxes to the living room and started unpacking them. The first box had clothes that belonged to Jason and me when we were little, on the inside of the flap there was a note written in black marker; “I kept these for you boys in case you ever wanted to come see me.” I put the clothes back in the box and set it off to the side. The next box was smaller, when I opened it there was mom’s wedding dress, dad’s tuxedo he wore for their wedding, a wedding photo album, and more pictures of him and her before they had kids. I shook my head and put that box off to the side. My cell phone started ringing, I pulled it out of my pocket to see that it was Mitch calling. I hadn’t talked to him since the day after mom was found, so I decided almost a month was long enough.

  “What’s up?” I answered.

  “Motherfucker, do you know that you’re losing Chass?”

  “What?”

  “You heard me, why the fuck are you pushing her away?”

  “It’s nice to talk to you too Mitch…We just need time apart okay. We’ve got some trust issues and with all the shit that has happened I can’t be with somebody right now.”

  He snorted, “Well when you lose her don’t expect me to fucking help get her back.” He said rudely.

  “Is she seeing somebody else?” I asked.

  “That’s not any of your concern I guess. Listen I’ve gotta go, I just wanted to let you know you’re losing her…” he said then hung up before I could res
pond.

  I didn’t bother looking through the other boxes I carried them out to the pickup then all of his trophies and drove back to the hotel. Once I was back in the hotel room, I showered and laid down on the bed. I grabbed my cell phone and looked through my old text messages. The ones between Chassis and I dated back to a month and two days before, I read them and could sense the hurt I was causing her by pushing her away. I started to type out a text but cleared it out, I went to her number in my contacts list and hovered above her name. I wanted to call and visit with her and apologize to her, but I figured it was something I needed to do face to face. I loved Chassis, everything just seemed to fall apart fast over my insecurities.

  I stayed for another week because I had to put dads house on the market to sell, I had it set up that no matter what the offer was to sell and put the money into a savings account for Chase that I had set up at another bank.

  I had been gone from campus for close to two months, Jason couldn’t handle having to go through mom and Nathan’s personal stuff so that’s why I was gone longer. When I did finally go back to campus I wasn’t expecting to get the shock of my life.

  Chassis

  ****

  I had started spending more time with Brody, he helped keep my mind off that fact that Jet was no longer talking to me. No matter how many times I called or text Jet, he would ignore me. Brody and I went on a few dates as friends, he knew that I wasn’t going to jump into a relationship until Jet and I had talked about our relationship.

  One evening after we had been to a party, Brody invited me over to his place, I agreed to go because hanging out with him really was fun. His roommates were pretty awesome too, we always pranked Brody but most the time he paid us back twice as bad. His fear of monkey’s though made it way too easy to actually scare him. When we got back to his house, everybody was gone. He sat down on the couch, “Chass come sit.” He said in his deep raspy voice.

  I sat down beside him, tucked my leg under me and turned to face him with one hand on my leg my other elbow propped up against the back of the couch and my head resting on my hand. He nervously ran his hands down his jeans then looked at me. He turned to face me, then raised his hand and with one finger traced my jaw line and tickled his finger across my lips. “You’re so beautiful, I’ve been dying to get a taste of you Chass…Can I kiss you?” he asked and stared into my eyes. I closed my eyes as he ran his finger down my neck then to the back of my neck and stopped. I opened my eyes as he slowly pulled me closer to him, “You say stop and I stop okay?” he whispered in his deep voice. I nodded my head yes and licked my lips as he slowly moved his face closer to mine, “Relax, I promise…I’m not going to go any further than you want.” He said as he looked from my lips back at my eyes. I closed the space between us until our lips were softly touching, I shifted so that I was leaning into him putting more pressure against his lips. I felt him smile against my lips so I pulled away.

  “What’s so funny?” I asked trying not to blush.

  He shook his head, “That was a NICE kiss but come on Chass I know you can do better!”

  I raised one eyebrow at him, straddled his lap and waited for him to move in for the kiss. We sat there looking into each other eyes, “Show me what you got Romeo!” I said with a smile. He cupped my face in his hands, and pulled me closer to his lips once they touched he licked my top lip with the tip of his tongue, “Open up!” he whispered, as soon as my lips parts he plunged his tongue inside of my mouth. I moaned as he slid his tongue gently against mine when his tongue touched the roof of my mouth behind my front teeth I nearly melted on his lap. I was enjoying the kiss, then I started to rock my hips against his hardening cock. He shook his head, “Don’t do that because I’m trying real fuckin’ hard here to not throw you down on this couch and fuck you until you pass out.” He said then moved his lips from mine, kissed down my jaw line and to my neck. He licked circles against my pulse point and moaned when he felt me shiver. I rocked my hips again trying to get some kind of friction going on, “I don’t have to fuck you to make you cum, you know that right?” he asked then nibbled on my ear lobe causing me to shiver again.

  “How are you going to do that?” I breathed out and rolled my head to the side as the nibbled and kissed on my neck. I felt him smile as he kissed his way back to my lips, then lightly sucked on my bottom lip and pinched between his teeth.

  “I know that your pussy is soaked Chass, I can feel the heat through our clothes, (he pushed down on my hips and ground our centers together), imagine me having you laid out on the bed. Your arms tied to the head board, I gently tie some silky fabric around each of your ankles then secure the other in to the side rails of the bed. You watch as my hands slide up the inside of your creamy white thighs until my fingers spread open those swollen wet pussy lips, Imagine the sensation as I oh so slowly run my tongue from your tight pussy hole up to your clit, all while never taking my eyes off of your eyes. Your clit is swollen and just begging for me to latch on to it and nibble on it and flick it, while I push one then two fingers deep inside that wet pussy. You’re so close to cumming, and pulling against the ties but I won’t let you cum and I won’t untie you.”

  My underwear were no doubt soaked from him talking like this and gently rocking my hips against his. I closed my eyes as Brody continued talking.

  “You start to beg me to fuck you but first I want you to watch me as I stroke my thick hard dick until the pre-cum drips on to your smooth pussy. You watch as I slide my, thick, black, hard, cock deep inside of you hitting your cervix just enough to make you want more pain. As I pull out of you, you look down and see your pussy juices and how they make this big fucking black cock shine. Mmmm your pussy feels so good I push back inside of you harder and faster but you want more, you want control. I untie your hands and ankles allowing you to climb on top of me and straddle my cock. You slide down and throw your head back as you feel my thick shaft pulsating inside of you as I try not to cum before you. You about ready to cum Chass?” he asked with a smile against my lips.

  My breathing had quickened, my clit was swollen and rubbing against my panties that rubbed against my denim jeans. I nodded my head yes and swallowed as my head fell back. My body was on fire, and he hadn’t even touched me down there.

  “Your nipples are peaked and begging to be sucked, so I sit up and take one into my mouth and suck on it causing just enough pain to make your pussy clench. Then I do it to the other, until you gasp and start rocking your hips faster and faster. I reach between us and start pressing against your clit, your breathing is so fast you feel like you are going to pass out. Before you can cum I flip you over onto your hands and knees, I straddle your legs and waste no time plunging back inside of you. I pull some of the wetness from my cum soaked cock up to the tight puckered hole of your ass. You gasp when you feel one finger circling the muscle, then when I push it in you scream out as I continue to push this massive cocker deep inside of you with every thrust. With my other hand I spank your creamy white ass cheek again and again until your pussy is flooding with your cum again. I whisper in your ear for you to fuck your own clit, so you slide your hand down and start rubbing faster and harder circles on it. I push my cock inside your pussy and pull my finger out of your ass. Then your pussy clamps down on my cock as your orgasm shatters you and then I cum shooting my hot fucking load deep inside of you causing you to shudder and moan with each burst of hot semen I’ve buried in you.”